(This post is part of an awesome series of awesome 25swf guest bloggers- read about them here!)
I love my red water bottle. We are rarely separated. It even came with me to the bar last weekend. Filled with water. This is a thing about me.
Oklahoma, Oklahoma – I had a dream about you last night where there was a truck crashed in my front yard and I was packing, packing, packing and I never. Stopped. Packing. I keep telling myself it’s time, I’m ready to leave, to walk out the doors – if only for an intermission. You see, there are too many memories here. This is too much the place where We were Together. And our togetherness is too much over. So I need to leave, right?
But… I have this thing. About my feet. Regina Spektor sings about it here. And what happened was, I was trying to create my user name, and there was waaaay too much frustration and I was thinking waaaay too much about it, and I had my Adele Pandora station on (which, by the way, is a great station for all you female vocalist fans out there) and I was about to go to bed because it was 1 in the morning (way too much time spent on this thing) and then… well, Ms Spektor popped up with her lovely song, which, in the true nature of happenstance (if happenstance can be said to have a true nature) (can you tell I lurve parentheses?), I had never, never actually listened to the lyrics of before, even though I have stated many times that I love Regina Spektor and I love this song. SO the moral of this one-long-sentence story is: I took my feet off the ground two and a half years ago and in turn lived two years of my life in a state of glorious love and happiness, for the most part. Five months ago, my feet hit the ground so hard, I’m still feeling the shock waves. Now, my goal is to be able to trust in the air again, to be able to let my feet leave the ground in whatever form this takes, and to know that this is a good thing to do.
I’ve been far far away before, almost as far away as it gets. And I’m craving that distance again, so be prepared for posts about that. Also please be prepared for posts about, well, almost anything.
So, not a real great Intro To Me section, and it’s pretty long. But, this is me right now. And this could change at any time. Because when I finally throw myself back into the wind, I think I’ll be more grounded than ever. But I’m taking the water bottle with me, yo.
“Now, my goal is to be able to trust in the air again, to be able to let my feet leave the ground in whatever form this takes, and to know that this is a good thing to do.”
This is EXACTLY why I am here. I don’t want to be bitter. I don’t want to never leave the ground again. I just want to make sure I’m floating in good hands. 🙂