I get on a kick with catch phrases sometimes, and my most recent one has to do with what I’ve been up to these days.
You may have noticed I haven’t been updating 25swf as frequently as I once did…
That’s for two reasons.
1) I’m so freaking happy and it’s hard for me to write about happiness. My natural tendencies lean towards expressing creativity out of an angsty, painful place. I know, I’m sick.
2) I guess it’s just one reason, because nothing else is coming to me. Yeah, happiness has always been the culprit of my dry pen.
But alas! Here I am! With a short thought of mine about the mucky muck.
So, my current catch phrase is “Learning lesson.” Or it could be sexy (and plural), “Learning lessons…” Let me explain…
This whole blog is based around learning lessons. Categorizing things as learning lessons gets me through the tough times. Instead of saying, “Everything happens for a reason.” I am just gonna say, “It’s a learning lesson.”
My latest learning lesson was this past weekend. I participated in the first ever 48 Hour Film Project in Oklahoma City. It’s an international film race and I organized a team to compete. We had a total of 12 people to work with, and it was most definitely a learning lesson. But before I embarked upon this race, I asked myself what I wanted to get out of it. I, after all, was the one organizing it and I was already feeling overwhelmed with the amount of projects I am participating in.
So, what did I want to get out of it.
I decided I wanted to learn how to be more hands off. It is usually the case that I am the team leader, the head, the organizer, the one people turn to and ask, “How much time do we have?” Well, this time I refused. All of the planning, the organizing, the picking up the slack for lazy people in other aspects of my life was taking a toll. I needed to take a back seat and let others try it out.
My hands off approach was hard at times, and I did slip up here and there, but I really did relinquish my normal control and let others take care of it. And you know what, it all worked out! And I actually enjoyed myself.
I would like it noted, however: we were 3 hours behind schedule, and you bet your bottom (?), that wouldn’t have been the case had I been the producer. Alas, learning lessons!
I guess my silly point (as they are all quite silly) is that sometimes you have to let go. Let others flounder. Let them fail. Like the mom always picking up after the spoiled brat kid, they will never learn to do it themselves if you always do it for them. But gawlee it can be so hard sometimes! Learning lessons…
Yours learning a lesson,
25swf
25 Single White Female 